Im confused?!?!!? has anyone else ever felt like this?!?!?

so im 15 (a girl) and well i like girls and boys so i thought i was bi, but i really like boys that look like girls, like with long hair and who wear make-up. like jeffree star. so yh drag queen, transvestites wateva :D its hard to explain but i want to be a boy, so i can dress up as a girl and wear make-up lol ino it sounds weird but i really want to be a boy just so i can dress up like a girl. i just want to know if anybody else has ever felt like this, or am i just weird?!?!?! :(