I am a girl, but I am so confused... please help =[?

Stop being ashamed! You sound like you may be transual. There are a ton of gay guys born in female bodies. The key to dealing with it is complete self acceptance. No shame. Tell your parents about how you feel and get them to take you to a gender therapist. The gender therapist can, if you want them to, get you testosterone that will make you manly. For now you need to stop being concerned with being "normal." That almost killed me. Just be proud of who you are. You can't change how masculine you are any more than your brother can.